kuJ GtnfvF ieho ijhIaF huMdIaF hn, jo quhfzy qn ivc vI, mn ivc vI aqy afqmf ivc vI zUMGy ËÉm kr idMdIaF hn. kuJ sfky aijhy huMdy hn, jo nf jfg skx vflIaF suwqIaF qy mrIaF ËmIrF ƒ vI jgf idMdy hn. kuJ ieho ijhy huMdy hn, jo quhfƒ quhfzI hsqI, quhfzI hoNd aqy quhfzy vjUd bfry AuWTy svflF dy snmuK acfnk KVHf kr idMdy hn. drbfr sfihb df sfkf ijs ƒ BfrqI styt ny afpxy gupq koz ivc apRyÈn bilAU stfr df nF idwqf, asl ivc kuJ ies qrHF dI drd iBwjI Gtnf sI, ijs ny suwqIaF ËmIrF ƒ vI jgfieaf, zUMGy ËÉm vI idwqy aqy ijs ny sfƒ ieh socx vI lf idwqf ik asIN kOx hF aqy kOx sI? ieh svfl vI sfzy sfhmxy afx Kloqf ik afAux vfly kwlH ƒ asIN rhFgy vI jF hfrIaF kOmF dy ieiqhfs df iewk Buwilaf ivsiraf kFz bx ky rih jfvFgy! 2000 sfl qoN vI pihlF ijvyN sukrfq Buwly Btky qy awlHV nOjvfnF ƒ AunHF dy rfh rok rok ky AunHF ƒ aËfdI, kfƒn, rfj aqy srkfrF bfry buinafdI svfl puwiCaf krdf sI aqy AunHF ƒ ieh socx leI mjbUr kr idMdf sI ik Auh kOx hn, AunHF dI hsqI kI hY aqy Auh sMsfr ivc kI krn leI afey hn? kuJ iesy qrHF hI drbfr sfihb dy sfky mgroN iswK kOm vI ieho ijhy svflF dy snmuK hoeI.

hr iewk jfigaf iswK ienHF svflF dy jvfb lwBx lwgf. pr Auh aihsfs sfzy leI sB qoN BrosyXog qy swc dy sB qoN vDyry krIb sI, ijhVf ÈhId hrijMdr isMG ijMdf qy ÈhId suKdyv isMG suwKf dy aMdr jfigaf aqy lt lt ky bilaf. ÌFsI df rwsf cuMmx qoN pihlF Bfrq dy rfÈtrpqI ƒ ilKI icwTI ivc AunHF dy ieh Èbd sfzIaF XfdF ivc hr smyN KlblI mcfAuNdy rihxgy. AunHF idnF ivc drbfr sfihb vwloN afAuNdI hMJUaF ivc iBwjI iswlHI iswlHI hvf dy sunyhy df anuvfd AunHF ny vkq dy rfÈtrpqI ƒ ilKI icwTI ivc ienHF ÈbdF ivc kIqf:

quhfzI ÌOj ny sRI drbfr sfihb aqy sRI akfl qÉq sfihb `qy hmlf krky ielfhI sfdgI ivc ivcr rhI iewk sMq-ispfhI kOm dy ichry dIaF rOxkF luwtx df Xqn kIqf sI. iewk vfr qF sfƒ vI ieMJ pRqIq hoieaf ijvyN sfzI kOm Gor AudfsIaF ivc zuwb geI sI, pr asF afpxf ieiqhfsk ÌrË adf krky quhfƒ ieh aihsfs krvfieaf hY ik sfzy suwKf isMG, mihqfb isMG aqy AUDm isMG, quhfzy mIr mƒ, vjIdy, lwKpwq, irbyro aqy zfierF dy ikqy nyVy qyVy prCfivaF vFg qur iPr rhy hn. Kflsf-idRÈtI anusfr asF jo kuJ vI kIqf hY, Aus dy ievj ivc agMmI bÉiÈÈ qoN CykI hoeI aqy ibpr sMskfr dI mfr hyTF afeI quhfzI adflq vwloN sfƒ idwqf igaf ÌFsI df hukm iKVHy mwQy pRvfn hY. mOq dI iqwKI Dfr ƒ Coh ky asIN sMpUrn hox jf rhy hF, ikAuNik Èhfdq qoN ibnF iËMdgI df suhfvxf mylf juV nhIN skdf.

ieh dovyN ÈhId mfnvqf dy ieiqhfs ivc Klo ky vI boly, mOjUdf ieiqhfs ƒ vI AunHF ny sfhmxy rwiKaf aqy vrqmfn jwdo jihd dy JMzf brdfr sMq jrnYl isMG dI kurbfnI ƒ vI awKoN proKy nhIN kIqf. rfÈtrpqI ƒ ilKI icwTI ivc AunHF dy ieh lÌË sfƒ sdf Xfd rihxgy:

jdoN kOmF krvt lYNdIaF hn qF ieiqhfs vI QrQrfAux lwg jFdf hY. iesy QrQrfht dOrfn koeI bMdf bhfdr afpxy ÈFqI mwT ƒ alivdf afK isqmF dI ngrI srihMd dI iewt nfl iewt KVkfAuNdf irhf, koeI cy gvyrf ikAUbf dI vËIrI ƒ lwq mfr ky bMdUk ihwk nfl lf bolyvIaf dy jMglF ivc duÈmx ivruwD morcfbMdI krdf hY aqy nYlsn mMzylf nslvfdI duÈmx dI eIn kbUlx qoN nFh krky afpxI sfrI Aumr kfl koTVI dy lyKy lfAuxI vDyry ibhqr smJdf hY. [[[qy sfƒ qF ‘mrd agMmVy` dy vrosfey pMQ dy aduwqI jrnYl sMq jrnYl isMG dI ipafr BrI Coh aqy sfQ df sbwb hfsl hY. asIN KMzy dI Dfr `qy qurn vfly iswK kOm dy anmol qy axigxq hIiraF dy pYrF dI DUV df iewk ikxkf mfqr hF. kOm dy lyKy ijMd lfAux df suBfg ivrilaF ivcoN iksy ivrly ƒ nsIb huMdf hY. [[[sfzf mfnvvfd eynf ivÈfl hY ik sfzy klfivaF ivc smuwcI DVkdI iËMdgI hI smf skdI hY. [[[sfzf KflsfeI joÈ sfzy rUhfnI qjrby df iewk aMg hY. aijhy smyN rUhfnIaq sfzIaF ÈmÈIrF dI cmk huMdI hY. [[[asIN quhfzy rfhIN ieh pYÊfm vI dyxf cfhuMdy hF ik sfzf ihMdosqfn dy mhfn lokF, ies dI DrqI nfl koeI vYr ivroD jF duÈmxI nhIN. AunHF pRqI nÌrq dI Bfvnf dy asIN nyVy qyVy vI nhIN hF. asIN qF Drq afsmfn ƒ afpxI gl vwkVI ivc lYx leI ibhbl hF aqy smuwcy bRihmMz qy ies ivc vsdI rsdI iËMdgI dI afrqI Auqfrdy hF.

ibnF Èwk asIN afpxI hsqI `qy hoey hmly df ZukvF jvfb idwqf. asIN Aus `qy mfx vI kr skdy hF. asIN jfxdy hF ik drbfr sfihb sfky qoN agly dOr ƒ KfVkU lihr df nF idwqf igaf. ies dOr ivc jo GtnfvF vfprIaF, ijvyN ienHF GtnfvF ny moV ilaf aqy ijvyN ienHF ny iswK mfniskqf, rfÈtrI aqy aMqrrfÈtrI siQqI `qy iswDf aqy aiswDf pRBfv pfieaf Auh gMBIr aiDaYn df ivÈf hY. pr ies dOr dI mhwqqf qy mhfnqf bfry ivdvfn qy ieiqhfskfr bymuK hoey hI nËr afAuNdy hn. KfVkU lihr dOrfn hoeIaF kurbfnIaF aqy ÈhfdqF df jy koeI ivÈlyÈx hoieaf vI hY qF Auh sqweI pwDr df hY aqy inrpwK vI nhIN hY. dUjy pfsy lihr dIaF kmËorIaF ƒ vDf cVHfa ky pyÈ kIqf igaf hY. jdoN ik lihrF ƒ ieiqhfsk nËrIey qoN vyKx qy prKx dI loV huMdI hY. koeI vI lihr asl ivc kmËorIaF aqy ÉfmIaF qoN pUrI qrHF mukq ho hI nhIN skdI, ikAuNik lihrF ivc afey ivakqI mnuwKI suBfvF aqy pRivrqIaF df iewk aijhf jmGtf huMdf hY, ijs ivc lihr dy kuJ ihwsy mn mrËI nfl cwl rhy huMdy hn, kuJ ihwisaF `qy ivcfrDfrk pkV ajy pIzI nhIN huMdI, kuJ ihwsy jËbfqI qOr `qy Aulfr huMdy hn aqy kuJ ihwsy aijhy vI huMdy hn, ijnHF dy jËby aqy suBfa duwD dy Aubfl vFg huMdy hn aqy rqf vI pfxI dy Cwty nfl mUq dI Jwg vFg vih vI jFdy hn aqy jwdojihd dI idÈf vI bdl skdy hn. iewQoN qwk ik Auh lihr dI muwK Dfrf qoN Ault idÈf vwl vI jf skdy hn aqy jFdy rhy hn. ies qoN ielfvf AunHF qfkqF df ivÈlyÈx krn leI qF ivdvfn ivhl hI Gwt kwZdy hn, jo gupq qy pRgt rUp ivc GuspYT krky lihr ƒ ÊYr isDFqk moV idMdy hn aqy iPr lihr ƒ bdnfm krn leI aqy jnqf dIaF nËrF ivc zygx leI afpxI pRcfr mÈInrI dy hr purËy ƒ srgrm kr idMdy hn. sfrIaF lihrF nfl hI Gwt jF iËafdf ieho ieiqhfsk duKFq huMdf ik ies pRcfr mÈInrI ivc quhfzy duÈmx qF huMdy hn, pr nfl hI ivroDI vI qy ÈrIk vI aqy ijnHF ny ‘afpxy` hox df BulyKf pfieaf huMdf hY, Auh vI vwK vwK rMgF rUpF ivc ies pRcfr mÈInrI ivc afpxf bxdf ihwsf pf rhy huMdy hn. jy sRIlMkf dI KfVkU jQybMdI ilwty df gMBIr muqfilaf kIqf jfvy qF AunHF ny afpxI jwdojihd dy muZly dOr ivc ienHF muÈklF df sfhmxf kIqf aqy kfmXfb vI hoey. pr KfVkU lihr ies qrHF dI kfmXfbI hfsl nhIN kr skI.

dUjy pfsy BfrqI styt dI kUtnIqI pRwÈIaf dy bfdÈfh ÌrYWzrk mhfn (1740-86) nfl imldI juldI sI, jo ieh ikhf krdf sI ik qusIN iksy qoN DoÉf nf KfE, sgoN DoÉf idE. Aus dI ieh nIqI ik ‘‘jykr iemfndfr bxn nfl kuJ srdf hovy qF asIN iemfndfr bxFgy aqy jy DoÉf dyxf ËrUrI hovy qF sfƒ bdmfÈ hI bxn idE,`` BfrqI styt dI iswKF pRqI kUtnIqI nfl ikMnI myl KFdI hY. ieho ijhIaF hflqF ivc kOx purfxy vfaidaF aqy sMDIaF `qy aml krdf hY. gwl ƒ gol mol krky rwKxf AunHF hfkmF df mksd huMdf hY jF dUjy lÌËF ivc Auh aspÈtqf ƒ hI spÈt kr rhy huMdy hn. ies leI KfVkU lihr df ijnHF hfkmF nfl vfh ipaf sI, AunHF leI ienHF hfkmF dy Dur aMdrly qwk phuMc krky jwdojihd ƒ AuWcI pwDr `qy lY jfxf koeI sOKI gwl nhIN sI. ies leI lihrF ƒ ieiqhfsk brIkbInI nfl dyKx vflI iqwKI nËr hI KfVkU lihr nfl iensfÌ kr skdI hY aqy kI ieh duwKdfeI aYlfn kr idwqf jfvy ik ieh nËr jy duÈmxF kol nhIN qF awj dI qrIk ivc sfzy kol vI nhIN hY?

asIN ikAuN hfry? asIN ikAuN hfrdy hF? asIN ijwq ky ikAuN hfr jFdy hF? asIN ijwq dy aYn nËdIk phuMc ky ikAuN hfr jFdy hF? ienHF aOKy qy guMJldfr svflF dy jvfb lwBx leI sfƒ ajy mr imtx vflI ipafs nhIN lwgI. Gwto Gwt Auho ijhI ipafs nhIN lwgI, jo ipafs mwCI dI pfxI leI huMdI hY. mYƒ ieAuN lwgdf hY, ijvyN iswK pMQ dI pIVf aqy ies dy drd ƒ lwBx leI sfƒ ieho ijhy svflF dy snmuK hox df hOslf krnf pvygf. dUjy ÈbdF ivc sfƒ ivvyk igafn dy aflm ivc Auqrnf hI pYxf hY.

asF AuWpr ikqy ieh iliKaf hY ik drbfr sfihb `qy hoey hmly df jo asF ZukvF jvfb idwqf, Auh pivwqr bdly df iewk aijhf rUp sI, ijs df irÈqf sfzy ieiqhfs dy sunihrI kFz nfl juiVaf hoieaf hY. vYsy ies nukqy ƒ hor spÈt, hor AuWicq, jfieË qy qrk BrpUr TihrfAux leI iewk vwKry qy gMBIr lyK dI loV hY, ikAuNik bdly dI ieh pRBfq do sO sflF dI lMbI hnyrI rfq ipwCoN cVHI sI. asIN Buwl hI gey sF ik aTfrvIN sdI ivc imslF dI cVHql dy dOr ipwCoN, iewQoN qwk mhfrfjf rxjIq isMG dy dOr smyq sfry dOrF ivc asIN krIb krIb suwqy hI rhy sF. ijs dOr ƒ aËfdI df dOr ikhf jFdf hY, hux sfƒ pqf lwg irhf hY ik Auh Gwto Gwt ‘sfzI aËfdI` df dOr nhIN sI. asIN qF 1947 qoN ipwCoN iewk vwKrI gulfmI df dOr hI hMZf rhy hF. ies gulfmI ƒ kI nF dyeIey ijwQy ijsm aËfd hn, pr rUhF gulfm hn? sfrf roxf qF iesy gwl df hY ik asF ies imwTI gulfmI ƒ hws ky pRvfn kIqf hoieaf hY.

jy ieiqhfs ƒ iewk vwKry nukqf ingfh qoN vI dyKIey qF ÈhId Bgq isMG dI jwdojihd df dOr aqy Êdr pfrtI dI hiQafrbMd jwdojihd df dOr vI ‘sfzf afpxf` dOr nhIN ikhf jf skdf, ikAuNik BfvyN ies dOr ivc kurbfnIaF bhuqf krky iswKF dIaF hI hn, pr iswKF dIaF ieh kurbfnIaF iswKI dy hwk ivc nhIN jf skIaF. iewQoN qwk ik bwbr akflI lihr dOrfn bdly dy rUp ivc hoeIaF mhfn kurbfnIaF vI Kflsy dI pRBUsqf sQfpq krn vwl awgy nhIN vD skIaF, Gwto Gwt rUh dI Èkl ivc awgy nhIN vD skIaF. ikAuN nhIN vD skIaF? ieh svfl sfzIaF nINdrF `qy boJ bxnf cfhIdf hY, pr bx nhIN irhf.

hux Ërf afpxI kOm dy rfjnIqk, Dfrmk qy swiBafcfrk rMg ZMgF ƒ iewk qrdI nËr nfl dyKo-iewk aijhI nËr nfl dyKo, ijs ivc suihrdqf vI hovy qy iËMdgI ƒ jfnx vflI jigafsf qy sMjIdgI vI hovy. kI afpF sBnF ƒ ieh mihsUs nhIN ho irhf ik ienHF sMsQfvF nfl juVy afgU isr qoN pYrF qwk dunIafdfrF vflI Kyz ivc msq hn? kI Auh mfhOl pYdf krn dI rIJ ikiqEN lwBdI hY, ijs ivc kOm dI hoxI dy svflF `qy ivvyk bihs ho skdI hY? KfVkU lihr ny hiQafrbMd ho ky bdly lYx df jo qrIkf aÉiqafr kIqf, Auh Aus ivc eyny inpuMn, eyny sfvDfn, eyny qjrbykfr aqy eyny isafxy sfbq hoey ik ieiqhfs df ieh kFz byimsfl hY. pr nfl dI nfl ies kOVI swcfeI ƒ vI svIkfr krnf pvygf ik Auh afpxy bdly df Aucyrf rfjnIqk rUp kdy vI nf isrj sky. ieho kfrn hY ik KfVkU lihr dy kmËor hox ipwCoN rfjnIqk mYdfn AunHF hI lokF dy hwQF ivc clf igaf hY, jo hr hIly cox ijwq ky swqf `qy kfbË hox aqy swqf ƒ afpxy svfrQI AudyÈF leI vrqx dy mfhr bx cuwky hn. iswKF dy aMdr ies mfVy ruJfn ivruwD ijhVy vIr jwdo jihd kr vI rhy hn, AunHF dy ichiraF qoN vI mUl rUp ivc ies qrHF dy ruJfn pYdf hox dIaF sMBfvnfvF agfAUN hI pVHIaF jf skdIaF hn. ieh iBafnk iKlfa hI iswK kOm df sB qoN vwzf drd hY.

hux iewk afÉrI nËr aMqrrfÈtrI mMc vwl suwtIey aqy ies mMc `qy inwq bdldy AuqrfvF cVHfvF ƒ suqMqr nËrIey qoN vI vyKx df Xqn krIey aqy ienHF df iswK nËrIey qoN vI ivÈlyÈx krn df Xqn krIey. sovIaq XUnIan ivc smfjvfd dy izwg jfx ipwCoN aqy kMipAUtr-Xuwg dI mhfn cVHql nfl dunIaf Br dy smfjF aqy kOmF ivc kI Ìrk afey hn? kI dunIaf dI srdfrI hfsl krn leI swqf dy kyNdr bdl rhy hn? kI styt-nyÈnË murJf geIaF hn aqy afpxI hoNd dI afÉrI lVfeI lV rhIaF hn? jy styt-nyÈnË ies DrqI qoN alop ho rhIaF hn qF ienHF dy smfnFqr bdl ikho ijhy hoxgy jF ho skdy hn? kI sYmUal hitMktn dI iQAUrI ijs ƒ Auh swiBafqfvF df ByV

kihMdf hY, swcmuwc hI afpxy rMg ivKfeygI? kI ieh sfrf iKlfrf iBafnk rUp vI aÉiqafr kr skdf hY? sUcnf ienklfb df bMb rfjnIqI ivc kI qbdIlIaF ilafvygf? kI dunIaf Aus dOr ivc dfÉl ho geI hY, ijs ƒ jymË zflI zyivzsn aqy ivlIam rIË-mOg ny afpxI cricq pusqk

ivc ‘mnuwKI smfj df cOQf dOr` ikhf hY? kI mOjUdf snaqI dOr jF Xuwg Éqm hox dy iknfry `qy hY? sfƒ ienHF sfry svflF bfry bVI gMBIrqf nfl ivcfrn dI awj ijMnI loV hY, ieMnI ieiqhfs dy iksy dOr ivc nhIN sI.

apRyÈn bilAU stfr ny sfzy idlF ivc sfzy duÈmxF aqy dosqF bfry iewk zUMGI lkIr iKwcI sI, pr sfzy idmfÊ ajy ijAuN dy iqAuN hn. ienHF ƒ qro qfËf krn aqy gurU gRMQ sfihb dI roÈnI ivc nvyN rfh isrjx bfry sfƒ isr joV ky bYTxf pvygf.

sfƒ afpxy vrqmfn afgUaF `qy bhuqf XkIn nhIN rwKxf cfhIdf. jy AunHF `qy AumIdF dy pul Ausfrdy rhy jF AunHF `qy hI tyk rwKI qF afAux vfly ieiqhfskfr ienHF afgUaF bfry ieho ijhIaF hI itwpxIaF kiraf krngy, ijvyN sMsfr-swiBafqfvF dy AuqrfvF cVHfvF dy mhfn igafqf ivl izAUrF ny afpxI pusqk

ivc ÌrFs dy ienklfb qoN pihlF vflI hflq df iËkr kridaF Aus vkq dy bfdÈfhF bfry ieh itwpxI kIqI: ‘‘Auh afpxy mMqrIaF ƒ jfnx qoN vwD afpxy iÈkfrI kuwiqaF bfry jfxdy sn.`` ies leI awj ieh aYlfn krn dI loV hY ik sfzy afgU sfƒ nhIN jfxdy. asIN afpxy ivcoN nvyN afgUaF ƒ jnm dyvFgy. sfzy zUMGy drd df jvfb awj ieho hI hY.